Small Happiness

" If you have dinner, I 'll surely get a doll for you tomorrow", said mom,when I was very reluctant to eat as a little girl.With the eagerness to get a small doll I had dinner and mom got me a doll next day.

As I grew older,there was a time wherein "Kaho Na Pyar Hai" was such a hit and I badly wanted to catch up that movie.When I asked my parents they told that fare well this time in the monthly test and we will take you.I studied well without going out to play for long hrs with the only aim being tests as I would be granted what I actually craved for..

I grew up and went to college and the same things continued.Mom and Dad never used to tell no,but then there was a clause and I had to fulfill it for me to get what I craved for.The happiness I got after I got what I wanted had no bounds.Everytime I felt as if I was on Cloud 9.

Now that I am independent and working, I never ask parents for things as I used to. They proudly tell that our daughter is Independent and has grown up to take care of herself.That is so nice to hear of them.But then coming back to the small happiness about which I am talking about,that small happiness has no room as it had when I was not independent or rather to tell until I started working!!!

I still remember the day when mom got me the Doll and I was so happy getting it and played with it for hrs.I do still remember the day when I scored the highest marks in the test,but I was more happy when my parents took me to that movie.Such small happiness have nothing to equal.We feel so dam happy and contented after getting what ever we wanted after doing some work towards it and craving for it for a short span of time.

These are the small happiness which man craves for.Getting a job,salary,weekends..are fine.But then, when I ask myself am I happy with all this, the answer which I get is no..I can now go and buy what I want.I need not ask small things from my parents as I get it within minutes as those things are well within my reach.I need not crave for things anymore.But then, that small happiness is lost wherein I used to crave for things and get it.

Guess now the mindset or rather the very definition of the word "small happiness" has to change and we should find small happiness by getting and giving gifts,surprises,hanging out with near and dear ones etc etc..All those small, very minute things bring great happiness not only to us but also in the eyes of those near and dear ones.This can only happen in this so called fast evolving world where in we find some minutes in our busy schedules.Else life becomes pretty monotonous and boring.

Come on!!!Boring and Monotonous wont's sound nice anyways to anyone after all everyone wants to be happy:)

The way I feel Music!!!

On a Friday evening as usual on my way back home I just plugged in my Earphones and started hearing to those songs which were in my playlist which is my daily course of action while travelling to and from office..But then..All of a sudden a thought creeped into my mind when I heard Shreya Ghosal's songs consecutively,that " Music always calms souls and takes us to a different place, a fantasy land"...

Be it any genre of music,be it any language,Music is always the same..It just calms souls.Coming down to the very components of Music we have the Orchestra troop or rather the Musical Instruments, a director to set the tune as well as to Co-Ordinate between the Musical Instruments and the Singer..The Singers take up the Center stage and everything revolves around them...The sweet voice they spell out is the best of the best Euphony one can ever experience.Some of these singers are truly gifted and others through practice they reach such heights spreading Euphony directly into the souls of those millions of listeners...

I just love to hear those songs sung by Lata mangeshkar,Chitra,Shreya Ghosal when it comes to the movies. But then on a classical note,two people have carved a niche in my memories since years .One is my Classical music Guru and another is my own lovely Grandma ..Ever since I started schooling, I was made to learn music.With all pampering from mom and grandmom, I used to go to my Music teacher quite irregularly early in the morning,say once in a blue moon and learn the basics of Music.She would never scold me for not being there to learn for days and days.Finally everyone decided that, I would get that seriousness only if I would take up Music exams.So then started off my journey with Music wherein initially I felt I was being forced, but then gradually when I started singing, learning the raaga,tala, I actually felt it to be nice..A great feeling when we sing..

Here a thought which my mom and grandmom tells comes to my mind."Anyplace,anytime...Music is all your's..You can sing whenever you want to..Whenever you are sad you can sing,whenever you are happy you can sing...It's a companion for lifetime..Nothing can beat it...". I have never seen such a multitasking lady who manages house being a very great cook,teaches how to prepare "Hoobatti or rather Hatti making" what is call in Kannada or in English those decorative things made out of cotton and in the due course of preperation of these cotton decoratives, she build up poems,puts ragas to them and sings.This is my Grandmom.!!!.Hats off to her..A good singer,good artist, most adorable person and a lovely grandmom to all of us.

Coming to the classical tenure, I just love hearing Jagadhodharana sung by Bombay Jayashri.Such an amazing singer..And not to forget the Keerthanas sung in the movie "Morning Raaga" is amazing.It has a blend of Classical as well as modern ways of singing..or rather Fusion music as of today..Also along with those songs of Bollywood, I love to hear those Bhavageethes which puts a great amount of life to the thoughts of great poets.The western tunes that has always adored me is that of Celien Deo and Bryan Adams..

So this is the way I see music..I see it everywhere,I experience whenever I want to..This is how it is a companion for me for lifetime., an integral part of me!!!

Then and Now!!!

When I was a small girl, I always used to see the eagerness in my mom s eyes and the enthusiasm in her to wait for the letters she used to get from her mom. Later as I grew up, I saw her dialing her mom s no and speak to her over the telephone. It was a notion and habit that as the std call rates used to be cheap at night, she made sure that she called and spoke to her mom only at night or early mornings. Then with the advent of mobile phone she saw to it that she called from the land line to that one single mobile no that was present at her mom s place. When I got admitted to college and had to live away from her, I was granted the privilege to possess a mobile phone only under the condition that I would use it only to receive calls from home and would not unnecessarily message my friends. It wap the time when hundred free messages was in vogue!

When I was about to complete my studies and graduate I wanted a much better hand set as the handset which I had was outdated den. I was granted that with great fore thought, only after I was placed in the company I work for now. After I started working, I was granted the permission to buy another sim of the local network provider as I was in a different state then. I got the chance to call my mom now and then as the call rates were cheap over the mobile when compared to that of the land line.

When I reached my home state,I was all independent. But then with many rounds of discussion regarding who would be using my old handset, I was granted the permission to purchase a new handset. Samsung corby fantasized me. So I got one for me!

I got the sim converted from pre paid to post paid so that I can speak to my mom as and when I want as the call charges are free! Unfortunately lost my cell and my cell had become such an integral part of my life that I rushed and got another cell again. This time it was the best! I had got Samsung galaxy which runs using android os. And through its compatibility with Google I can access my mails anytime and every time as well as keep in touch with friends through Google talk. And now with one of its other application I am writing this blog.

Now comes the question why am I writing all this.?

Only because I feel there has been a great advancement in technology and people 's thoughts. Where were we and where are we. We were in a state where in we had to wait for days to get a letter or hear someone speak and now,we can hear and get what we want provided we have enough currency in our mobile if its pre paid!! :P Where were we,when we had to go to browsing centers to check mails and where are we now wherein mails just reach us just like messages reaching the Inbox.

There is no comparison to what we were and to what are we today. Let this advancement continue and reach greater heights but then,let us not forget those old days where in we used to crave for things.

Let us use these to the fullest with a Constructive mindset and not with that of a Destructive one!!!

Naam Gum Jayega

I happened to hear this song "Naam gum jayega" from the movie "Kinara" who's Lyrics is written by Gulzar,very accidentally when I was in the verge of downloading some other song and was completely speechless.The song is soulfully sung by the Queen of music LataMangeshkar and the Lyrics of the same..It's just a meaty..Nothing can substantiate it's meaning..

"NaamgumJayega,Cheharaayehbadaljayega
Meri Awwaz hi pehchaan hai,gar yaad rahe"

This takes us to a completely different world which drives us to give some work to our thought process. It makes us think, even we need to do something more memorable, something more meaningful, something which atleast one life thinks about us when we depart from the place we are. We need to carve a niche for ourselves by doing something good and nice to others, so that they remember us by our deeds...

Here this song has it's own meaning and the singer is herself the best example. When we think about the Queen of Music Lata Mangeshkar, she is Immortal. She's soulfully sung songs in such a way that her beatific Euphony directly takes us to a different world and stays in our mind for years. There is no count to the number of times the same song gets hummed by millions around the globe!!!Such is the permanence. These Euphonious songs have changed minds and calmed souls. So through the language called MUSIC she's carved a niche for herself.

The beginning lines of the song aptly suits her very living which states my name might not be there,my true existence may not be there or rather I may come down as a different person with a different name,but then my recognition is only through my voice,my music and only music.

All in her thoughts!!!

They surround her all over,they follow her where ever she goes...and those are hers..Her thoughts..her only thoughts..It is just hers..

When she was little kid,they followed her asking why does it rain while she used to play in those showers of rain,why are the little sparrows always on the trees while mom always used to show her those and managed putting those small spoons of food into her mouth and was more than happy whenever she was successful even if half the bowl of food was in the little kid's stomach.

When she was a little gal, her thoughts again followed her asking why should she know those colourful small and big letters when it was time for her play,why should she go to school and sit in those classes when there was a huge ground to play.

When she reached her teens,her thoughts following her asked her why does mom ask her to concentrate on her studies and rarely allowed her to play for long hours,why are people around her catching a glipmse of her whenever there was a chance and why was she doing the same as well.

When she reached her sweet late teens,her thoughts got a new look where she began to dream in her thoughts about a handsome prince just as in Cindrella,thinking her to be one..

When she was about to complete her college,her thoughts changed drastically where she wanted to achieve something more,something nice so that her mom who used to feel tired feeding her naughty little one becomes proud of her young gal..

When she completed her college,her thoughts followed her again asking why cant things be the same as it was before she left home,why cant she get back to her mom and be with her as she was when she was a little kid..

When she started working,her thoughts gave her an answer as she realized that she had transformed from a flippant,naughty gal to a serious gal,why does mom always tell her that she had grown up to be an young lady now..

Her thoughts followed,followed and followed through all the phases she passed through.But still she feels very young and very naughty just like a kid many a times.Her thoughts always drag her to the windows whenever it rains,but never lets her physically to go out and get drenched,never lets her to play with all those cute little kids,spending their holidays..,never lets her get those long summer holidays where she got cozy in her grand mom's arms and play the whole day with her cousins and her thoughts just gets back to those days and craves to get back there,but life already has something more to think and give to her...!!!

All these finally becomes her only treasurable memories that can be cherished throughout her life ...

Happiness!!!

"The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of Unhappiness..!!!!"..All confused as to why am I thinking about Happiness all of sudden.? So was I...

When it comes to my personal front my thoughts always conflict stating that am I happy and contented or not..If yes then was I not happy until before and if not was I ever happy before..??All confused by my thought..

Here comes a very small analysis.."Happiness I feel is a state of mind!!!".It is something that has to come from within. If we get whatever we want or craved for since long we say that we are happy else say we are sad and confused. Life is actually a journey and so is happiness. As we balance life, which is a mixture of joys and sorrows so should we balance the state of being happy or sad in this journey called life.

Personally I have always got whatever I actually wanted..Even now I am pretty much contented with what all I have. Yeah..I do have certain dreams which I want to bring to reality. Dream is a state of thought which keeps us active and gives us sort of enthusiasm to achieve something more. When we achieve this, happiness automatically blooms in our heart and mind. Again we start dreaming of a new thing and this continues. But accidentally when we don't achieve what we had dreamt there comes the disaster. We would be totally shattered and feel this is the end..This is called sadness..

So if a sort of balanced life is lead then happiness and sadness will have the same amount of doors open to them in our lives. Nothing will have an exception.


"Happiness is the feeling you're feeling when you want to keep feeling it".....This thought is so true....

Year 2010 to Me....!!

2010..This year was the most memorable year in my Life!!!!!

It's been said, "Life and thoughts changes as years pass and as the transition happens from a carefree,freewheeling College going gal to a serious Career oriented gal..."
Initially that freewheeling College going gal transformed to a Flippant gal and later to a serious gal......

Guessing who that freewheeling,flippant,serious gal is???
It's meee........

All these transformations happened in me during this year 2010.I almost roamed around places,travelled crazily and what not.....All these experiences thought me new things in life.Everything,every moment thought me one common thing...ie.Patience.

It also thought me how to deal with people.Speak whenever required and just enjoy and live every moment and be contented with what I have actually gained.

I just lived every moment of the year to the fullest..

During the beginning of the year,Life had dragged me to a place which I had'nt even dreamt of..But then I got accustomed to the same.Met new people,learnt new things,visited new places,learnt what life is outside when we are far far away from home sweet home....
I am grateful to the Almighty God for bestowing on me what I actually wanted and being with me in all times of distress.

With lots of new dreams,aspirations and dream of flying far and wide life a carefree bird , I heartily welcome this New Year 2011..

"“Live this day as if it will be your last. Remember that you will only find ''tomorrow'' on the calendars of fools. Forget yesterday's defeats and ignore the problems of tomorrow. This is it. Doomsday. All you have. Make it the best day of your year. The saddest words you can ever utter are, ''If I had my life to live over again. ''Take the baton, now. Run with it! This is your day! Beginning today, treat everyone you meet, friend or foe, loved one or stranger, as if they were going to be dead at midnight. Extend to each person, no matter how trivial the contact, all the care and kindness and understanding and love that you can muster, and do it with no thought of any reward. Your life will never be the same again.”....This is a very nice inspiring thought........:)